So I know I have been a little bit of a downer the past few weeks but there have been some sad, unhappy things going on in my life and this is my place to get them out. I really shouldn't have been surprised by my thoughts this evening yet I am. Well maybe not surprised but wishing I could get out of this funk I'm in.
After a horrible day at work I come home to find a packet of papers to fill out before we go to Ian's Endocrinology appointment. It's really the standard issue paperwork. Insurance information, payment policies, and family history. Only with this the family history is much more extensive than your typical primary care physicians. In most of the research I have read it does talk about how much Growth Hormone deficiencies are genetic and while I haven't found anything that states this about IGF-1 I still wonder if maybe this is as well but since most of them are the paperwork has an extensive family history section.
The part of this thought that brings me down is that both Dave and I only know half of our family history since neither of us know our birth fathers. A wise lady once told me that if the only reason I had tried to contact my birth father was for medical reasons then there really wasn't any reason to keep trying because it didn't much matter. I had after all made it all these years with out needing to know this information. While I still think that advise make perfect sense I do find myself wondering if knowing his medical history could in some way help Ian.
What if Growth Hormone Deficiencies are prevalent in his family could that information cut down on some of the test they will have to run on Ian? I know what if these things are not part of his family then it really doesn't matter but I can't help but wonder.
Of course one of the groups of questions is asking if any grandparents, aunts, uncles, or cousins suffer from any of the following. It goes on to list about 20 different disorders and diseases and I don't really know. Of course I will answer them based on the information I have but this brings up another issue. When we meet with the doctor should I explain to him that neither Dave or I know our birth fathers so we don't have a complete family history?
Am I over-reacting to all of this? You can be honest it's ok I do tend to over-react to things but I can't seem to move past this one. So thanks for listening to me rant and complain, I do feel a little bit better now.