Thursday, September 4, 2008

Lost Friends: Part 2

Part 1

The next week when I came back to school things seemed fine, until 4th period. That's when Shanna (someone I hated with a passion back then but now is one of my best friends) asked me how I was able to even look at "B". Of course I was very confused and I asked her why I wouldn't talk to "B", so she told me everything that was going around the school about Dave and I.

At first I was in total shock and was sure Shanna must be lying to me. So I asked someone who was supposed to be my friend if this was true and she said yes. I really don't know why any of my friends didn't tell me about this and to this day that really hurts me. Some of them latter told me they believed her until I talked to them and they really thought about things they had seen and things they hadn’t seen.

I don’t think pissed even begins to describe how I felt then. I am pretty sure my blood was boiling and all I wanted to do was find her and beat the living day lights out of her. Of course she left school early that day so I had to wait until the next morning to confront her. Which I did first thing before school started. In true “B” fashion she first tried to deny it but she quickly figured out I wasn’t going to buy that so then she started rambling on with one excuse after another which made me more mad. It got to the point where I was screaming at her with my face almost toughing hers. That’s when a few friends of mine pulled me away. It’s a good thing because I really don’t know what I would have done next.

By then the truth had gotten around the school and people were finding out how she had lied about everything. There was also another rumor going around that she was trying to become a witch. It actually was true because her mom had called me to find out why “B” was researching How to become a Witch. I’m sure you can all imagine the kinds of things people were saying about her, myself included.

I figured after that morning everything was done and over with. I didn’t want to ever speak to her again and everyone knew she was a liar and what she had said wasn’t true. I was wrong though. At some point after school that day “B” drove to my mom’s work and told her that Dave and I were having sex. My mom came home early that evening and she was not happy with me at all. Of course I could have cared less what she thought and I even called her a hypocrite because back then I thought I was born out of wedlock which was the excuses she was using as to why I shouldn’t be having sex. I actually threw that back in my mom’s face. I really could not believe that “B” had gone to my mom and told her about Dave and me. This of course just fueled my fire and pissed me off even more.

That year at school I was working in the Guidance office and the secretary was so nice and really cool. She had heard about everything from other students and had told my counselor what was going on. I think they were all worried I was going to beat the living daylights out of “B”. So before that happened they stepped in and asked him I wanted to have “B” called to the office where I could confront her with supervision. I decided this was a good idea because I really wanted answers as to why. I had pretty much figured it out but I wanted her to say it. So they called her in and we spent the next 2 hours yelling at each other. It finally resulted in her admitting she was jealous that I was doing things with Dave and she wanted to get back at me for this.

I was glad to have her admit the truth and to tell me why she had said all those hurtful things but it didn’t really make me feel better. I had still lost a friend, someone I had shared so much with over the years and that really hurt. At that point there was no way I could forgive her because I was too hurt by her. Even now almost 10 years latter it still hurts to think about what she did and said back then. I have forgiven her for it, but I could never be friends with her again. I do find myself wondering about her from time to time. For a long time I used to see old friends and they would tell me things they had heard about her. I even saw her once on TV after she had given birth to a baby, but it has been a long time since I have heard anything. I do hope that she is happy wherever she is.

8 comments:

Therese said...

Wow, that is a really sad story...girls can be so cruel...

Emily said...

oh Jess, girls can be so awful!
You poor thing. I empathsize, high school sucked.
Oh honey, I have no words, I want to hug you!
EM

Mom to 3 Monkeys said...

Yikes!! That is a pretty horrible thing to do. I don't think I knew anybody that low but I don't think I knew anyone who would have confronted me. Crazy story! Glad it ended ok, even if it was without a friend. The real kicker is you and Dave are married so all that shows how wrong she was.

Insane Mama said...

Girls are nasty nasty nasty..Gotta go read part one now.

Did you read my sad little girl story yesterday? I was ten. They were so mean

Anonymous said...

At least you don't have to deal with her anymore: consider that you're silver lining. :) I'll say it again: I don't miss high school...

- Tif

Anonymous said...

I meant "your" silver lining. I'm having spelling issues tonight. :)

T.

Kelly said...

Again, so happy high school is over!!

Candid Carrie said...

Did the guidance counselor make an announcement over the public address system and say that B was a liar and not even a real witch. Because that would have been cool. Kind of like the perfect ending to a movie.